Remember how this thing all started. Running til I'm fun. Getting rid of my frustrations. That's kinda how today's run went. Day three of the corporate challenge and I'm finally remembering why I love this so much. Because some how, some way, running calms me down.
It's not always long lasting, but at least for a few moments I really feel at piece. My runs are like venting. They start out strong and I'm essentially sprinting and fuming, running to angry rap songs and cursing along with them. Then I hit a point where I stop caring, things come into perspective and I start to feel better. I'm either getting tired and start focusing on running, or my inner rant ends and something else grabs my attention. Some days its other runners or cute apartments. Somehow I find myself playing the "I could totally live in this neighborhood" game. Or I should come back here with so and so, they would love this park. Everything just calms down and I finally understand what it's all about. Essentially it's all about me (god isn't that the slogan for one of those weird tshirts that everyone rocked in junior high).
Anyway, one of the things I'm known for is "Ange time." It drives everyone I know crazy, but essentially I cut myself off from the outside world. I shut off my phone and stop checking email. I seclude myself and just do whatever I'm in the mood for. Sometimes I watch crappy tv, sometimes I go shopping by myself, sometimes I cook, sometimes I just sit in my bed and zone out. It's weird, it's frustrating for others, but I love it. You see I'm constantly talking to people. I email and text and talk on the phone and bbm and tweet and facebook and blog and well you get the point. I'm in a constant state of communication and sometimes I just love to stop everything.
But I've noticed that whenever I'm running, my desire for Ange time slips away. I'm content. I get my peaceful state of being alone. I get lost in my thoughts. And today I finally starting feeling all of that. And while the run itself was slow and sloppy, the "Ange-time" was amazing.
I'm probably taking a rest day tomorrow, but I'll get my last run of the week in over the weekend and of course I'll keep you all updated.
Also, in case you all don't already know. Co-blogger sarah turns 24 tomorrow (Thursday). So feel free to shower her in happy birthday comments :)